I need to be saved from myself

April 21st, 2011

Let's start with the good stuff. I've been MIA cause I went to Vegas last week. It was awesome.

How HOT is my man!? :)

Life "since Vegas"....not so awesome.
1. Between Vegas and everything I am about to explain, I've easily put on at least 5lbs. Maybe even more like 7lbs - FAIL.
2. The day I am back to work from my mini "vaca," the shit has hit the fan and now I am STRESSED the F OUT!
3. My boyfriend and I are moving in a couple weeks and have a schedule so jam packed, that it literally only leaves us with evenings after work and one weekend to pack. UGH.
4. Someone VERY important to me has had a drug addiction for awhile now, been in and out of rehab, recently kicked out of rehab and on Monday I got a call because they were admitted to the hospital for "OD" type symptoms from shooting up heroin............

I can't even deal with all of this right now. I feel like I can't escape. And....here's where this blog is ideal to vent about all this crap - I have been binging on anything and everything to find comfort. I feel like I can't stop. I don't want to exercise. I just want to eat, and eat bad, BAD foods. I want chocolate, and cheese, and chips, and mexican food....lots of it. I wish I was one of those people who can't eat when they are stressed or upset - THOSE people are so lucky (although they probably don't look at it that way).

Anyho...thanks for letting me vent. I put up progress pics right before I went to Vegas....here's to hoping I don't stray too far from the progress I have made in them.

10lbs and NEW Progress Pics

April 10, 2011

I'm a few days behind in posting this, but as of Friday (my weigh-in day) I have officially lost 11.1lbs. And that means it's time for NEW PROGRESS PICS! I feel that I've lost most of the weight in  my waist line. Can't wait til I've lost another 10lbs so I can do a side-by-side comparison of a 20lbs!

So on Friday I weighed in at 152.9lbs and I leave for Vegas on Thursday. My goal was to weigh 150 by Vegas, but if I weight 150-point-anything I will count that as a win. :) 2 lbs.... time to get to it!

PR & A Loss!

April 2, 2011

Yesterday was a damn good day. To start the day off right, it was my weigh-in day. I am down to 154.3, which is 2.1lbs dow for the week and a total weight loss of 9.7 lbs. Only .3lbs away from a 10 lbs loss, and taking new progress photos! Yay! I want to see if I can lose 4.3 more lbs before I leaving for Vegas on the 14th. If I am diligent, I think I can do it.

My 5k is tomorrow and I went for a quick 1 mile run after work yesterday just to keep my body in "running mode." My time was 8:57 which is a personal record! And shockingly enough, I wasn't pushing myself that hard. Looks like all this training is actually producing some results. I am still pretty nervous for my 5k tomorrow. I know I'll be able to complete it without stopping, but I would really like a time under 35 minutes, but history has shown that when I do a longer distance, I start to slow down a lot. I guess all I can do is my best.

And last but not least, the dresses that I ordered and that were "delivered" (in other words - not delivered) to my house last week, will REALLY be arriving on Monday. Probably going to call UPS in a few here and see if I can just pick them up at the UPS location they are currently at. I am sick of waiting.

I am sure I'll be posting after my 5k tomorrow. Hope everyone has a fun weekend planned!

Rachelle xx

Sick and Frustrated

March 22, 2011

Friday as soon as I got home from work, I threw on my workout clothes and headed out for a run. At what turned out to be 1.4 miles, I had to stop. I was exhausted and my body literally just gave up. I couldn't understand and was so angry with myself for not being able to go further. Actually in all of my training for my 5k, I had never once stopped during a run.

Well by the end of Saturday, I was in bed sick and my pathetic run finally made sense. I've been one sick girl since Saturday and the timing couldn't be any worse since my 5k is in 11 days. CRAP. I've been trying to rest up and get well, but my head is so full of sniffles and crud that I am really really worried about my 5k. I have been working sooooo hard to get myself conditioned to run the entire thing and pull of a half-way decent time (been averaging sub 10min miles lately) and to have it all messed up due to this cold just days before is really disappointing. I am planning on going to the gym tomorrow night regardless of how I feel and am aiming to do a 5k on the treadmill even if I have to walk some of it.

UGH.

On a more exciting note, VEGAS is in 21 days and I just ordered a few dresses from gojane.com for consideration (we'll have to see if they look good on me at all).

What do you all think? I am nervous to see what they look like on me. I HATE my legs and dresses always make me nervous for that reason. 

Rachelle xx

Good Girl.

1.6 miles done. 10:35 pace. Not too shabby considering it was freezing cold and all I wanted to do was sit on the couch.

Repeat after me: Vegas. Vegas. Vegas. ;)

Epic Weekend, Epic Fail

So the past few weeks have been an epic FAIL (in the diet sense).

This past weekend I had the most epic weekend visiting my family and friends from home. I ate. I ate ALOT.

Crap. Bad. Damn it. Crap.

Today I have started focusing on what I eat again, and counting, counting, counting.

My 5k is in 39 days.

Vegas is in 50.

I MUST weight 145 by Vegas.

Any suggestions how to "get back on that horse" ?