Up and Down

June 10, 2011

The past week as been insane and brutal with my weight loss. Last week I was down to 152.2. My lowest low so far. At one point over last weekend I even saw 151.1 on the scale. I bought myself a pair of jeans 2 sizes smaller that the ones that were currently hanging in my closet. I then proceeded to pull out my "Skinny jeans" - not because they are the skinny jeans style, but because they are actually a size 8 and I haven't fit into those in well over a year. Well I pulled on the "skinny" size 8 jeans and to my astonishment they actually fit. I am not saying they fit perfectly, but even a bit snug, I almost wore them that day but opted for the jeans I just bought instead.

So my week started off well. Then Tuesday was my anniversary with my man, and I ate. Alot. Then Wednesday my company was hosting an all-day business seminar, at which I started off watching my eating (even brought my own breakfast and lunch!) but then I lost all control during the networking reception afterwards (free drinks and delish apps!). THEN, yesterday my company was sponsoring a hole at a BBB Golf tournament which meant my coworker and I were out on the green from 10am-5pm yesterday with beer, snack food, and then were treated to a delicious dinner during the awards ceremony.

CRAP. CRAP. CRAP. Let's just say, the scale didn't say 152.2 when I stepped on it this morning for my weigh-in.

I am getting so frustrated with this roller coaster crap. One week my weight plummets and then the following week, I gain like 4 lbs! How is that even possible? It's not like I have been eating an entire pizza every meal, everyday for the past week.

UGH. As I have mentioned recently,  I am flying out to Nebraska with my boyfriend over 4th of July to visit his family. I was hoping to be 145 by then, but at this rate and this roller coaster pattern, I am just praying for anything in the 140's.

But today is a new day, right? So far so good :)

Hope everyone else has a good weekend!

Rachelle xx

Boxed Up and Over It

May 4, 2011

My boyfriend and I are moving on Friday and I feel like my life is in complete disarray. I hate having EVERYTHING in boxes. We've been eating out like crazy because it's so much easier than dealing with the boxes and re-packing dishware.

Can't wait til Friday. After this weekend, and life returns to normal, I am going to focus on my weight loss again. I took a bit of a break to deal with "life" (see here) but I feel gross, out of shape and just plain unhappy with my body. Our new place has a massive pool and I am a pretty damn good swimmer (if I do say so myself)...thinking of doing some laps in the mornings as part of a regular routine. Anyone else in that habit? And the new place also has a gym, which will be SUPER convenient. Can't wait!

On another note, Christina of "From Before to After: A Journey Through Weight Watchers" is hosting an awesome giveaway. Check it out here for your chance to win workout DVDs, an awesome camelback water bottle or fitness mag subscription.  While you are there, become a follower of hers. She has an great workout routine and reading about how good she is with finding time to go to the gym motivates me to get my booty into gear.

Probably won't have much time to write til after the move this weekend, but I'll be reading everyone's posts! Hope everyone has a great weekend! :)

Rachelle xx

I need to be saved from myself

April 21st, 2011

Let's start with the good stuff. I've been MIA cause I went to Vegas last week. It was awesome.

How HOT is my man!? :)

Life "since Vegas"....not so awesome.
1. Between Vegas and everything I am about to explain, I've easily put on at least 5lbs. Maybe even more like 7lbs - FAIL.
2. The day I am back to work from my mini "vaca," the shit has hit the fan and now I am STRESSED the F OUT!
3. My boyfriend and I are moving in a couple weeks and have a schedule so jam packed, that it literally only leaves us with evenings after work and one weekend to pack. UGH.
4. Someone VERY important to me has had a drug addiction for awhile now, been in and out of rehab, recently kicked out of rehab and on Monday I got a call because they were admitted to the hospital for "OD" type symptoms from shooting up heroin............

I can't even deal with all of this right now. I feel like I can't escape. And....here's where this blog is ideal to vent about all this crap - I have been binging on anything and everything to find comfort. I feel like I can't stop. I don't want to exercise. I just want to eat, and eat bad, BAD foods. I want chocolate, and cheese, and chips, and mexican food....lots of it. I wish I was one of those people who can't eat when they are stressed or upset - THOSE people are so lucky (although they probably don't look at it that way).

Anyho...thanks for letting me vent. I put up progress pics right before I went to Vegas....here's to hoping I don't stray too far from the progress I have made in them.