Weigh In

June 17, 2011

I was so pleased to get on the scale this morning and see 151.7. My weight has been a crazy roller coaster ride lately and I am glad to be at a new low. My trip to Nebraska to meet my man's family is 15 days away and I am DETERMINED to be in the 140's.

On a side note,  2 days ago I received a Facebook group invite for my High School Reunion! WTF...has it REALLY been 10 years! And more importantly, do I REALLY want to see all of those people? Especially with an ass this big???

I think it's  hilarious that our class president wants the reunion to be a rafting trip - clearly she hasn't gained any weight since high school. I, on the other hand, have a HUGE issue with being in a bathing suit in front of all those people

Has anyone gone to their reunion? What about skipped their reunion? Were you happy with whatever decision you made? I don't really know if I want to go. I kinda feel that everyone I wanted to keep in touch with, I have. And everyone else I get "all the dirt" I need from Facebook - HA!

Would love your input! Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and is lucky enough to spend it with their Daddies...I won't because my Dad is a $400 plane flight away, but I LOVE HIM ANYWAYS!!! :)

Rachelle xoxo

Up and Down

June 10, 2011

The past week as been insane and brutal with my weight loss. Last week I was down to 152.2. My lowest low so far. At one point over last weekend I even saw 151.1 on the scale. I bought myself a pair of jeans 2 sizes smaller that the ones that were currently hanging in my closet. I then proceeded to pull out my "Skinny jeans" - not because they are the skinny jeans style, but because they are actually a size 8 and I haven't fit into those in well over a year. Well I pulled on the "skinny" size 8 jeans and to my astonishment they actually fit. I am not saying they fit perfectly, but even a bit snug, I almost wore them that day but opted for the jeans I just bought instead.

So my week started off well. Then Tuesday was my anniversary with my man, and I ate. Alot. Then Wednesday my company was hosting an all-day business seminar, at which I started off watching my eating (even brought my own breakfast and lunch!) but then I lost all control during the networking reception afterwards (free drinks and delish apps!). THEN, yesterday my company was sponsoring a hole at a BBB Golf tournament which meant my coworker and I were out on the green from 10am-5pm yesterday with beer, snack food, and then were treated to a delicious dinner during the awards ceremony.

CRAP. CRAP. CRAP. Let's just say, the scale didn't say 152.2 when I stepped on it this morning for my weigh-in.

I am getting so frustrated with this roller coaster crap. One week my weight plummets and then the following week, I gain like 4 lbs! How is that even possible? It's not like I have been eating an entire pizza every meal, everyday for the past week.

UGH. As I have mentioned recently,  I am flying out to Nebraska with my boyfriend over 4th of July to visit his family. I was hoping to be 145 by then, but at this rate and this roller coaster pattern, I am just praying for anything in the 140's.

But today is a new day, right? So far so good :)

Hope everyone else has a good weekend!

Rachelle xx

Time for a Change?

June 2, 2011

I am a bit nervous about weigh-in tomorrow. I've been counting my points all week, but after last week's massive (and undocumented) weight-loss, I seem to have hit a bit of a plateau. Last week I weighed-in at 152.9 and my anniversary with my hunny is on Tuesday for which my goal was to be 151-point-anything.

Here's to hoping I can pull that off! :D

On another note, I have been SERIOUSLY thinking about chopping my hair off. Currently my hair is long, down to the middle of my back or so. But I am just kinda sick of it. It takes forever to dry, FOREVER to get it to do anything cute, and I just never seem to be happy with it. I saw Bridesmaids the other night (AMAZING moving btw!) and I couldn't get over how cute Kristen Wiig's hair is.



How cute is that!?



I had my hair cut in a cute A-Line Bob a few years ago and I loved it. But then I got bored of that so I decided to grow my hair out long (of which I am bored of now too...anyone seeing a pattern?)  So I need your opinion.....

YESSS! I'm Back! And Back on the Horse!

May 27, 2011

Man, it's been one hell of a month. The past few weeks I have been loosely "trying to get back on the horse" but this past week I meant business and it paid off! The last time I weighed in I was 152.9. Me and my man's anniversary is on the 7th and my goal was to get back down to that last weigh-in weight.

Today after counting every last point this week, running my booty off after a long separation from the gym, I got on the scale.

152.9

OH YES! And I still had 11 days to reach that target. New goal for the anniversary. 151-point-anything.

Enjoy the holiday weekend!

Rachelle xx

I'm Back

May 13, 2011

As you all probably have read, I was on "a break" from WW/weight loss for the past few weeks. Life threw me a few curve balls and I needed to just get through it all.

First of all - thank you for all your support! You have no idea what your kind words have meant to me and how helpful they have been.

With that being said, I got on the scale today. 156.6. Not good. My last official weigh-in was a month ago and I was 152.9. I am up 3.7lbs. UGH.

Now it's time to quit the excuses. I am going to Nebraska in 50 days exactly to meet my boyfriend's extended family. It will be 4th of July, and HOT and we'll partying at the river...are you catching on?? That's right - shorts and bathing suits will be in order and this body is in no shape to be in either of them. My goal is to be at 145 by the time I get on that plane. I think it's pretty ambitious, but if I really, REALYY focus, probably do-able.

I also haven't run in a month. Now that we've moved, unpacked and gotten settled in, there is no excuse. I feel really gross. I was running about 3/4 times a week previously and now I feel so lazy and tired.

So the "free pass" is over. I have a friend's birthday tonight and another tomorrow. I am giving myself these last two days to "indulge" and then come Sunday - it's ON!!!!!!!!!

I wanna see 152.9lbs again by my anniversary in a few weeks.

Wish me luck!

Rachelle xx

Boxed Up and Over It

May 4, 2011

My boyfriend and I are moving on Friday and I feel like my life is in complete disarray. I hate having EVERYTHING in boxes. We've been eating out like crazy because it's so much easier than dealing with the boxes and re-packing dishware.

Can't wait til Friday. After this weekend, and life returns to normal, I am going to focus on my weight loss again. I took a bit of a break to deal with "life" (see here) but I feel gross, out of shape and just plain unhappy with my body. Our new place has a massive pool and I am a pretty damn good swimmer (if I do say so myself)...thinking of doing some laps in the mornings as part of a regular routine. Anyone else in that habit? And the new place also has a gym, which will be SUPER convenient. Can't wait!

On another note, Christina of "From Before to After: A Journey Through Weight Watchers" is hosting an awesome giveaway. Check it out here for your chance to win workout DVDs, an awesome camelback water bottle or fitness mag subscription.  While you are there, become a follower of hers. She has an great workout routine and reading about how good she is with finding time to go to the gym motivates me to get my booty into gear.

Probably won't have much time to write til after the move this weekend, but I'll be reading everyone's posts! Hope everyone has a great weekend! :)

Rachelle xx

Thank you!

I wanted to extend a HUGE cyber hug to those that left such sweet and supportive comments on my past few blog entries that covered some less-than-happy topics.

Especially to:

Kelty from Biggie to Smalls  - Thank you for the encouraging words and compliments on my Vegas pix.
Heather Marie from Misfit to Miss Fit - It was your supportive comment that helped me feel ok with putting the weight loss "on pause" to get through everything. Thank you :)
Lucy from Dimishing Lucy - Thanks for the sweet compliments on my progress pics - it's so nice to hear that someone else is noticing a difference since it's so hard to see it ourselves sometimes.
Baby Weight and Beyond - Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone.

I appreciate all my blogger friends out there! What a GREAT community!!!!!!!

Rachelle xx

THE Breakdown

May 2nd, 2011

I had a complete breakdown. As I mentioned in my previous post, life is less than ideal at the moment. I've kinda put my weight loss on pause because I am just trying to get through all the crap I am dealing with right now.

With that said, yesterday I had a complete breakdown. My man and I had plans to meet up with some of his friends and their girlfriends at the beach. Initially I was excited - I really like the company of all the girls and was looking forward to catching up with them. I put on my bikini (not my choice, but my boyfriend INSISTS I look "good" in a bikini). But when I looked in the mirror, I wanted to vomit. I feel like I look so disgusting. And all I could think about was how FAT and GROSS I was going to look next to the skinny girls I was about to meet up with. I spent the next half hour balling my eyes out like a 5-year-old having a tantrum.

I hate feeling so inferior next to other girls. I hate feeling like I am going to be some fat, gross, ugly embarrassing girlfriend compared to the other girlfriends.

We ended up going, and I enjoyed myself - never took off my summer dress.

I hate that my weight has such an impact on my social life....

Ugh....

Thanks for letting me vent.

I need to be saved from myself

April 21st, 2011

Let's start with the good stuff. I've been MIA cause I went to Vegas last week. It was awesome.

How HOT is my man!? :)

Life "since Vegas"....not so awesome.
1. Between Vegas and everything I am about to explain, I've easily put on at least 5lbs. Maybe even more like 7lbs - FAIL.
2. The day I am back to work from my mini "vaca," the shit has hit the fan and now I am STRESSED the F OUT!
3. My boyfriend and I are moving in a couple weeks and have a schedule so jam packed, that it literally only leaves us with evenings after work and one weekend to pack. UGH.
4. Someone VERY important to me has had a drug addiction for awhile now, been in and out of rehab, recently kicked out of rehab and on Monday I got a call because they were admitted to the hospital for "OD" type symptoms from shooting up heroin............

I can't even deal with all of this right now. I feel like I can't escape. And....here's where this blog is ideal to vent about all this crap - I have been binging on anything and everything to find comfort. I feel like I can't stop. I don't want to exercise. I just want to eat, and eat bad, BAD foods. I want chocolate, and cheese, and chips, and mexican food....lots of it. I wish I was one of those people who can't eat when they are stressed or upset - THOSE people are so lucky (although they probably don't look at it that way).

Anyho...thanks for letting me vent. I put up progress pics right before I went to Vegas....here's to hoping I don't stray too far from the progress I have made in them.

10lbs and NEW Progress Pics

April 10, 2011

I'm a few days behind in posting this, but as of Friday (my weigh-in day) I have officially lost 11.1lbs. And that means it's time for NEW PROGRESS PICS! I feel that I've lost most of the weight in  my waist line. Can't wait til I've lost another 10lbs so I can do a side-by-side comparison of a 20lbs!

So on Friday I weighed in at 152.9lbs and I leave for Vegas on Thursday. My goal was to weigh 150 by Vegas, but if I weight 150-point-anything I will count that as a win. :) 2 lbs.... time to get to it!